Here were the highlights of 2018 in no particular order:
Started making more fabric art and having ideas about it. Became determined that someday I would have my own show.
I tried bullet journaling and failed,but did have some cute take away ideas
The Princess Bride by William Goldman
The Shell Collector by Anthony Doerr
Mouthful of Forevers by Clementine Von Radics
Walking by Henry David Thoreau
A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson
The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt
Taking the Leap by Pema Chodron
Bird Box by Josh Malerman
Misfit Manifesto by Lydia Yuknavitch
Braving the Wilderness by Brene Brown
Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro
The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Hiking with Nietzsche by John Kaag
Dust on the Tracks by Nora Zeale Hurston
Tried preparing for a possible Appalachian trail hike in 2019, but failed. I did gain knowledge about hiking and camping and my body’s limits.
Started making my own oatmeal concoctions and continue because it is delish.
Bought myself flowers almost every week of the year
Learned that my child had been trying to kill herself in my home, while I was there, because she felt so alone. Since the age of about 6 she had felt like a boy, always seen herself as a boy, wanted to be a boy. In our home we did not provide gender stereotypical toys and clothes. You play with what interests you and you wear what is comfortable. At most I thought she was a tomboy. Around 4 th grade I could tell something had drastically changed, but I didn’t know what. The sparkle from her eyes had died. I kept watch, but there weren’t any real outward signs of what was wrong. School grades stayed high, continued to eat, participated in family activity...but something was off. When I fell in love with my ex I became less aware of these differences and I own that as a mother. I should have dug deeper. February of this year I learned that not only had my darling daughter wanted to kill herself, but also wanted to be my darling son. This was a journey so miraculous and so painful and so life changing. The thought that my child would think I wouldn’t accept them because they wanted to be a boy, that it would be to hard for me to think outside the box, that I would spend one minute less loving him. This year has been about learning who he is. It has been learning about who I really am after a life of being what others want me to be. It has been a year of building my home and deciding exactly what sort of friends and family I want in it. For 16 years I had a daughter, and now I get to have a son without going through childbirth. Sweet sassy molassy this is great.
From this journey, I started being friends with my ex-husband again. We have known each other
half our lives….since we were 19 years old and now we are 45. For the last decade after the divorce, we didn’t talk much and only at exchanges of our child. But when we thought we had lost him we decided to be on the same page about everything and that meant keeping communication not only up but making it better between all of us. This is hard work. But from this hard work, we found our friendship again which to me had always been the best part of our relationship. It is funny to see how well we know each other in some places and how little in others. I am thankful for this friendship. He knows my life and I don’t have to explain it to make a point.
I did my first weaving project. I did my first applique/beading project.
We went to many concerts:
Red Hot Chili Pipers
Mountain Jam x3 days (Alt-j, Portugal the man, The Record Company, The Felice Brothers, Jenny Lewis, George Clinton and Parliament…..and so much more)
Lake Street Dive
I started reading comic books again and love it.
I made many new kinds of food.
I had so many fun laughs with my kid.
I finished my first every crocheted blanket for my son’s queen size bed
My love of succulents turned into an obsession. I went from 8 to about 50. I took a class on propagating them. I joined an international group about them. I’m a crazy plant lady.
I embraced my CD collection this year and made it grow. I don’t even know with what. But god I love music.
I really got into MBTI thought. I got back into Tarot after not doing it since college.
I went to a beach in the Delaware Bay for the first time and stayed with friends and ended up losing those friends. Life is weird. I learned that I love the bay side of water rather than the ocean side. There is so much life to see in the bay.
I bought my first ever pair of Vans...light and dark blue checkerboard.
I made a cake for my ex-mother in law for her birthday...a 2 layer. I had not made one of those in a decade.
I started playing Disc Golf and got addicted. I didn’t play in the winter as planned, but I still love it.
I began writing a short story collection. I wrote two poetry collections. I thought about my novel for a minute.
I left a job I had for 15 years. I changed hospitals and shifts suddenly and it was the best decision I have made for a career. The work is challenging and rewarding and for the first time ever in my life I feel like I’m touching my patients lives in a positive way.
I painted a bunch of river rocks and left them on Market street to make people smile
Eventually figured out at the end of the year that drinking isn’t really my thing. I still have a drink now and then, but it is out of desire not out of escape or loneliness.
I played on a Music Trivia team and we won!
I collected aphorisms for my daily boosting. These were things that lifted me up and near the end of the year I knew I didn’t need them because I was lifting myself up without them.
I started making scarves for the needy and blankets for end of life comfort. These are part of my service goals at work, but also part of my heart. I am learning that this part of my life is about giving, about making smiles and getting nothing back but the feeling of joy.
I tried doing Inktober again and didn’t make it. I like drawing but not as much as I used to. I did do some fun drawings but realize that is not where my talent lies.
I hand made a Blue’s Clues costume with my son this year in 3 weeks. It was rad.
I got new glasses….horn rimmed glasses. I look dashing.
I ordered Lunarly box for fun. It’s nice to get surprises in the mail.
I learned my uncle Mike will probably die within the year from a glio. So damn sad.
I started making the coffee shop my haunt rather than the bars and I have met so many people. I feel more part of the community than before.
I got to experience the joy of my friend having her first baby after many years of trying. He’s so damn cute. I love his little face.
I went on my first ever wine tour with people from my new job. I played paintball for the first time ever in my life.
I put my christmas tree on the porch this year so it is the first and last thing we see when we come and go from the house.
We saw The Sound of Music live. Squeeee
I bought a ukelele and started playing….and then stopped.
I helped my son get his first ever job. Yay.
We did a reduced Christmas this year and it was the best one we ever had.
I got my hair dyed for the first time in 20 years by my best girlfriend’s daughter.
I have been purging the house of all things not of value. It is still going on but this house will be whole soon enough.
I started getting acupuncture again with great result.
I got my first every bonus from a job $850 take home.
I wrote my first every proposal to get a conference paid for to a Transgender wellness conference in Philadelphia.
I'm looking forward to bigger and better things this year. As always I do have good intentions of keeping up with this blog. I'm going to shoot for once a month since live is so much busier than it ever was. So here I am sliding in on the end of January. Have a blessed life. Keep your eyes open and your heart bright.
Thanks for reading.