Years ago my friend Ed Churchouse introduced me to the wonders of Jason Molina. Over the years Jason was Songs: Ohia, Magnolia Electric Co, and in Amalgamated Sons of Rest with Bonnie Prince Billy and Alasdair Roberts. This music changed me in such a deep and profound way that I wasn't initially conscious of.
I played Jason Molina's music when I was feeling small, when I was angry with the world, with myself. I played it when I wanted to be reminded that I was allowed to feel and allowed to cry.
Last year he died of alcohol related organ failure at the age of 39. We lost a special person at a young age. I remember seeing the news article posted on social media. I remember telling Ed....being the first one to give him this news. Then, I cried. I wept because Jason's music touched the very vulnerability in my own heart that I try so hard to keep protected.
I have lost so much to alcoholism in my life...my family ravaged by it. This was just another brick in that wall built up around me to crumble.
I will let his voice say it all. Simple, pure, dark vulnerability.
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